The LeapA Poem by Teapea24A poem, a rant,a way to stay sane.Growing up but knowing how to stay young knowing when to be vulnerable and when to be strong. Knowing. Wanting without showing what you want Wanting to be hidden and wanting to be known. Conflict within and conflict without how do two warring personalities work it out? We rant and rage and tear ourselves, trying to morph into one whole and complete being. Is there room for anybody else? Make room, at the table for dinner for the stranger on the bus with bags and bags. Make room in your mind for something new make room in your life for someone other than you. Not selfishness but fear and unknowing Fear is sharp and dark and cold We want the warmth of the fire, its soft glowing light but not the journey through the strangness of the night We claw to what is safe and sane and real forget to feel and lose our footing and fall always falling and clawing at the sides grasping for something stable to hold you still Just for a minute so I can think, and breath. Breath and wait, breath and stagnate Comfort and boredom hold amicable hands They swing and sway with ease and impotence The cold clammy sweat of wondering what if and what else, sticking to their skin Is this the skin we live in? ` My skin grows flowers and life and art It holds me and comforts me and shields me and hides a softer vulnerable core. Those cold clammy hands separate and reach down through the grass to plough through the earth below. Inhale until it hurts and ask the question: The question, all the questions only to realise you are the answer that you seek. You hold the power to be strong and to be weak. You dont know how, you know barely who you are and you are your own best chance. Standing on a precipice looking down Talking yourself into jumping, knowing the water will swallow you and release you that the fear is all in your head. But it ties you down, like vines growing from the rocks enroping you around the waste trapping you down and telling you not to go and you hope that the feel of the world falling away from you feet means that its worth the leap makes it worth the sharp cutting of the ties and often it does not. That is wisdom: not every leap is worth your time, not every try is worth a try, but not trying at all is the slowest way to die so learn from each other and do not make the same useless leap twice. © 2018 Teapea24 |
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