This world

i was tempted to plunge myself into that silent lake 

to let the water wash away my troubles 

sinking my calamities where no one could be effected 

i was the author of unalterable evils 

lived in daily fear of my own actions 

my obscure feelings would not be missed 

the weight of despair on my heart could not be removed 

neither the thoughts of guilt on my mind 

the people who's existence were bound to mine 

could easily be undone through time 

my life had begun with endless possibilities 

but i was left with none of the abilities 

you took both hope and fear from my soul 

you made me lose my optimistic attitude 

and drowned me in my own despair 

you ran back to hell 

and left me waiting for a return 

but in the end 

i was dragged down with you 

committing sins of a hurt mind 

though my heart is dead 

my mind was destroyed by a particular bliss 

a love that was lost 

..... a love that was forgotten 

a love that never existed? 

now this moment, i shall weep bitterly 

and fall angelically into the water 

i shall kill myself alone

as i entered this destroying world 

the world that deprives people of everything it promises

is not one i wish to live in