The Important Parts

After years of being told you're unlovable, how does that affect your viewpoint on relationships?

I can’t imagine loving someone
I can’t imagine someone loving me
I’ve been told I’m unlovable you see
That no one will care about the things
That I do, or that they will but I won’t be
Able to care about the things that make them unique
I see photos of couples every week
Having, holding, hoping, but it won’t be me
It’ll never be me, ‘cuz the idea of building relationships seems
Pointless. Why do things when it could all fall apart?
Take photos that’ll rip out your heart?
When things go to hell, ask yourself why did we start?
Exes ruin the important parts
It’s better to be alone with comfortable thoughts
Than look back at things and wish that they
Hadn’t happened. ‘Cuz it hurts. It hurts so much.
It hurts to be alone too, I suppose
But I save money on champagne and roses
That will likely go to a girl who will never know me
No photographed poses
No late night convos
No love letters composed
I’ll just tuck myself in at night
I need to love myself anyway.

Reviews

[R.E. Ray]

A gut-wrenching poem. You've certainly captured what so many have felt after a bad childhood and/or a bad breakup. Much like each of us experience in our minds, you took us through the streams and waves of self-doubt, self-loathing, bitterness and all the other junk that prevents us from trusting again. And, you captured the most important part in the last line. I think we all know we can't love someone or expect them to love us, if we don't love our self. Nice work. I look forward to reading more.

[TheWriterSean]

Robert, thank you so much for the kind words! It's certainly been a long journey but writing has helped me start to heal in many ways. Looking forward to posting more healing in the future.

[UN]

We've all been there, no? Very relatable, real. Rhymings not my favorite but it works.

[TheWriterSean]

Thank you for the feedback, Ewan!

[Carly]

heartbreaking and the emotion caught my attention and held it, thanks for sharing :)

[TheWriterSean]

Thank you for the kind words, Carly!