trying so hard

Big Trigger warning!!! SH

Laying in bed

Trying so hard not to cut

We came so far

But it’s so hard right now 

Finding different ways to cope

Pain in my left hand 

It’s getting red

Probably turning blue or purple

Regret

But I’m laying in bed

Trying so hard not to cut

Pulling my hair

Breathing hardly 

Screaming on the inside

Another way to cope

Not the best way

But I’m laying in bed 

Trying so hard not to cut 

Want to run away

But where can I go

Who wants to care about me

But I’m laying in bed

Trying so hard not to cut