i am that thing

There is this thing in my head

Its deep inside me

I got it under control

I thought

Then I woke up

Everything was bad 

Nothing helped

And then I needed you 

But I couldn’t tell you

How should I

„Hey give me attention, I feel bad“

I got it under control 

I thought

Then I had a breakdown

Tears rushing down my face

I don’t got it under control 

Anymore

Help me

Why can’t you f*****g hear me

Get this thing out of my head

It destroys everything

I destroy everything

Because that thing

Thats me

Im that thing inside me

Deep down inside me

I thought I got myself under control

But acting

It was all acting

F**k

How could this happen

I don’t got it under control anymore

I need you

Please

I need you so f*****g much

With you

I can control me

I want to have it under control!

Help me

Please

Im that thing 

Inside my head