Same Tears

R.I.P. Alisia... first part is hers

Last night I cried
I cried the same tears
The same tears that burnt my face
Last time and the time before
It's like as soon as the scars
From these skin-burning droplets disappear
They return, but with a different name
The first time it was Jr.
After him, it was Baby Boy
Then left, Damien, Omar, Wilfredo,
Luis, Juan, Xavier, and now Juice
Some were Disciples, some Kings, and some Lords
But all Latin and all proud
True and loyal, but also betrayed
Betrayed by the ones who comforted them
Through thick and thin
Through gun shots and bloodstains
But not through pledge
The pledges that swore them
To always have their brothers' backs
and to never turn them in
Now they're dead
All shot down by bullet spitting cars
And trigger drawing fingers
Laying in pools of their own red paint
Paint that still runs through my veins
But overtime this paint will thin
And their faces will fade from my mind
Then I'll have nothing
But the distant memories of black and white times
Times that are now painted red
I refuse to see red
I refuse to have another piece of my heart
Be shot down and covered by white latex gloves
And thick black garbage bags
Garbage bags that turned into wooden boxes
Boxes that have been lowered into crumbling ground
Ground that also holds their stone cross biographies
Stone crosses that I lay flowers on
But I don't do that anymore
Cause every time I visit them I cry
I cry those same flesh-burning tears
The same tears I cried last night


The tears that burnt your face, now burn mine
Readin your words, they send chills down my spine
I'm searchin for answers, it's drivin me insane
I found out it's not always true that time heals pain
If it was I wouldn't be sittin here with blurred vision
You up there, me down here, I hate this division
I got goosebumps when my plane touched down in your city
How could they take away an angel so pretty?
They told me you still shine through my poetry
Hoping your proud when you look down, your like a celebrity
Everytime I see your picture, my heart beats sorrow
Pleadin' to God to keep ya safe, hopin' for a better tomorrow
I feel guilty because I wasn't there to protect ya, I confess
Thought I was gettin' stronger, but it seems like I regress
Just wanted to know that you hold a special place in my heart
It didn't go how we planned, for now, we're apart
I guess God just needed you more than I do
All this time and I forgot to say thank you
For everything, always had my back, my true friend
I hope you're receivin' all this love I send
Always in my thoughts, never a fadin' memory
I know your happy with your cousins in eternity
Glad you're in peace, stayin' in a better place
But I wish you were here,those tears now burn my face.
 

Reviews

[K. McNeil]

sad, true, beautiful and filled with raw emotion

[Catastrophe]

*tear runs down face*

I guess God just needed you more than I do

definitely my favorite line, it stands out and this has just been beautifully written.
There's so much pain and by reading each line i can feel the pain through the words you say and that's a very beautiful thing. Truly amazing; can i ask what inspired you to write this?

[Inda Lauryn]

This is really powerful and eloquent. I'm beginning to notice mostly young women where I live dying way too young. I can't imagine the pain and suffering their families must endure. This poem expresses it beautifully.

I must single out one line though:
I guess God just needed you more than I do
It drives home the entire piece for me.