I want to

I want to take you places you've never been
I want to talk to you through out the night
I want to hold your hand as we watch the sunrise
I want to hold you in my arms
I want to fall in love
I want to see you do the same

But in reality:
I have to see you ignore me in class
I have to see you flirt with other guys
I have to see you choose other guys over me
And
I have to see you get your heart broken over and over again
But the Atleast I get to see you fall in love
It's just not me