Not named

I have no name for this poem at the moment but it is very dear to me so when I find one fitting I will add

Please listen,
Please don’t take it personal,
Please don’t leave me,
But I don’t want to love you,
I don’t want that weight in my chest,
I won’t ever understand this pull you have on me,
You make me crazy,
You make me weak,
You make me think that everything else is nothing and you become everything,
You are intoxicating,
You say my name and you draw me in
I’m trapped, with every syllable you have me captivated.
I think “I should go”
My heart thinks “let’s stay”
I don’t understand what we have,
I don’t comprehend what we don’t have,
I want so bad to lay with you,
To feel you,
The warmth,
Your tone,
To feel your breath intertwine with mine,
I want to to breathe you in and hold it there, for if this was real I’d fear it was only for a moment and fear that we will love an eternity with out ever really knowing..
Deep in my heart I know that some how you are where I am supposed to be,
But when opening my eyes I am convinced this is where I belong,
If I was to truly whole hearted belong here then I can’t love you..
But for some reason my very determined heart does.