Christmas Cinnamon RollsA Story by Ms. RobNarrative/Sensory ImageryChristmas Cinnamon Rolls
Most
of my Christmas memories are a sweet jumbled mix of carols, candy-canes,
multi-colored lights, and stringed popcorn.
The years get stuck together like the old-fashioned ribbon candy in
Mom’s Snowman shaped jar. It’s hard to
remember which Christmas it was that Uncle Larry built my Victorian doll house,
which Christmas I got my own telephone number, or which year it was that we drove
to Florida to surprise our Grandparents.
It’s as if favorite Christmas memories can be kept in a trinket box to
be taken out anytime the craving for sugar cookies strike. The memories fade a
little and melt together, but they bake warm and sweet into the mind, into the
heart. The memory of my 11th Christmas is not melted
into the other Christmases. It is
separate and clear like the green peppermint that gets left at the bottom of
the candy dish. I remember waking to the
sounds of Christmas wrapping paper crinkling in my little brother’s small pudgy
hands. This is not a loud sound, but an 11-year-old
ear has become a trained instrument of Santa-activity detection. I walked down the dark stairs letting the
twinkle shadows from the tree lead me to the living room. Stevie was too young to be expected to wait
for Mom and Dad. His sweet little excitement-giggles
captured the sound of Christmas much better than the carols we robotically preformed
at school. Nevertheless, I turned on the
country radio station that had dependably played “Grandma Got Ran Over by a Reindeer at least once every hour since
Thanksgiving. I gently grabbed Stevie’s
soft hand and made sure he did not see me stuff the forgotten cookie from
Santa’s plate into my mouth as we made our way past the tinsel draped tree to
our parent’s bedroom. The cookie was dry
like sand, but I swallowed discretely as I prepared to wake the Queen of
Christmas. But she was not in the
bed. Dad was, but he did not look like
he wanted to be woken. Stevie did not
seem to notice as he pulled on the edge of the pillow, “Daaad-eey, Santa, Santa
brwot prwesents.” I left Stevie in the
bedroom and went looking for Mom. I
found her alone in the kitchen with the smell of coffee and cinnamon rolls, but
she did not look like the Queen of Christmas this year. She just looked tired. The rest of the morning followed the traditional Christmas
agenda. We opened presents, we ate the cinnamon
rolls, and Dad spent most of his time looking for batteries. The December-orange light coming through the
window told me that morning was fading.
I knew that I should get dressed, but the soft cotton of my purple
snowman pajamas felt soothing on my skin.
Stevie was playing with his matchbox cars and his new loopity-de-loop
racetrack. I watched his focused
inspection of a line of tiny cars for “doors-that-open”. Mom and Dad were in the kitchen, alone for
the first time all day. I was not sure
if turning the volume of the music louder would offer them privacy or fuel
their anger. I chose to be quiet. I did not want them to remember that we were there,
because I wanted to pretend that we weren’t.
I opened
my imaginary Christmas memory box as a shield from the shouting. Christmas three years earlier replayed in my
mind. Stevie was just a baby, so he did
not remember the drive from Texas to Florida.
Gramma Dorothy’s ebullient sounds of surprise were only muffled by her
hugs and kisses navigating us though the screen door. Her tree was the most beautiful Christmas
tree I had ever seen. Even to this day,
no tree can live up to the memory of Gramma’s tree. I can still taste the chocolate frosting on
the butter knife that she let me sample while we frosted her annual “Happy
Birthday Jesus” cake. Happy, that was a
happy Christmas. That year was the happy
memory that I will always be grateful to pull out of my Christmas memory box. But even the warmth of that memory could not keep the chill
from the kitchen away from Stevie and me.
I wondered what he was thinking as I watched him crash his new little
cars. His beautiful toddler face was
serious as he inspected the ferocity of the wreckage. I wished that I could believe that he was too
young to know what was happening, but I had wished for a lot of things that
Christmas that were never delivered. We
never had cinnamon rolls again on Christmas morning, and the four of us never
again had Christmas as a family. © 2014 Ms. RobAuthor's Note
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