Hmm.

Hmm.

A Poem by Dawn
"

"They are going to pull the plug today.."

"
I took two steps back and felt something.
That sharp pain that pulls me into myself.
The dark is a suffocating feeling
when I'm afraid my eyes won't open.

"They are going to pull the plug today.
Lung cancer, all that cigarette smoking finally did her in."

Pacing halls with sterile smells and plastic smiles.
Twinkle twinkle little star,
"Another newborn just came into the world"
a nurse says over my shoulder.

"Grandma's dying, she can't breathe without--"
Muffled crying, I'm crying inside, I have to be strong.
I wasn't her favorite, I wish I was.

Flashback-

"Dad isn't going to take us up to Grandma's today, he has work."
(A disappointed look.)
"Dad doesn't want to make the trip too much traffic."
(A sad and resigned nod.)
"Dad can't take us to the reunion, it's too far, you know how he gets."
(A nod.)
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They are going to do it.. they really are.
But-- it's a bad bad world.
Her face was pale, lifeless.
My feeble grip, I could barely touch her.
"It's going to be okay," I say--
my older sisters sob grasping my shoulder blades
why am I the one, I want to run ---now!

"Dad will be here later, he had his schedule, it's his schedule."

Grandma is going to die
I nod, and shut my eyes.
She's trying to catch her breath,
as they take the oxygen away.
Gasping, or is that me gasping,
inside my head.

Hands like ice, I grip my purse.
No sobbing no sobbing at all.
Twinkle, twinkle little star..
"Another newborn just came into the world."
She's lifeless, she's gone, oh my God.
I walk out into the sitting area.
"Hi, Dad, she's gone."
I sit down in a chair as he walks to the room.
I nod.

© 2017 Dawn


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Wow, such a powerful story. It touches my heart... That flashback added such an amazing element to this. Sorry for your loss, wish you could've got to see her more, as I'm sure you do too. Thanks for sharing, much love!

Posted 6 Years Ago


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Ouch, that's sad. I'm lucky in a way because I only have my immediate family so all the less heartache and mourning.
Welcome to the site, I hope you enjoy as much as I have.

Posted 6 Years Ago


Dawn

6 Years Ago

Thankyou it happened some years ago but it still pains me at times. :) I appreciate the welcome and .. read more

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Added on July 2, 2017
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