Pain

These are the feelings of a guy that wants something in life and is going after it but the mother wants to protect him from what she thinks will be a mistake that he will not be able to recover from.

Pain 

Pain is looking at my mother and not being able to tell her that i love her and all i wanted to do was to make her happy, proud and win her approval, and all i managed to do was fail, disappoint and hurt her.

I wish i was something more than what i am , i shaped my self into something that you can't digest and feel ashamed to talk about.

Why not just be proud of who i am and look at my positives, for the qualities people love me and respect me for, i have another side to me , more than what you expected and that is the real me.

I love you for who you are and how you raised me even though it wasn't perfect but i still know how hard it was i could see your pain , i could see your struggle and still you managed to raise us right, healthy and educated. 

Your hopes and dreams getting shattered because i have chosen a path that i felt was right for me , for the person i am , for the mistakes i made ,and will make in the future. 

But only if you let me make my own mistakes and learn from them i will be able to have my own experiences, will be able to tell my own story , live the life i was created to live. 

Only if you let me chose my own path it will lessen my pain, it will lessen your pain to see me succeed in the path i choose rather than struggle on the path you chose for me. 

For we both will be in Pain knowing i could have done much better if i walked my own path, because i know all you want is your kids to succeed and win in life be happy and lead a healthy life.

I love you Mom

 

your Son.