This Ocean, This Breeze

This poem really captured my emotions after losing my best friend (my grandma). This ocean is place of mine I go to find myself and am trying to deal with the pain.

This Ocean, This Breeze

Rain falls
As so do I
Rain inspires
And only fuels the fire
In my heart
How ironic
Rain fueling fire
So rain keep coming
And wind keep blowing
And sometimes rain freezes
And its starts snowing
Or thunder cracks
To remind us to come back
But nothing matters she is gone
Rain leave it alone
Rain is beautiful
But I will never tell
Why rain is so sweet
Until she sets next to me on my beach
My moment
My …
Cant you see she dropped
The most beautiful sea shells
Now they belong to her
to receive through time
It is raining on my beach.
Rain is beautiful
As so am I

And here I stand
In this sand
Demanding to know this plan
and why
when the waves crash
the feeling comes back
sparking my heart
like a renewing fresh start
like I am washing away
in thought
never to come back
I belong here
I belong in this moment
I belong to this ocean
I learn with the tide
I laugh with the morning
And dream with night
I remember you
And where to start
to tell you i am sorry
that this sea
sets me free
builds me up
helps my heart beat
and nothing is what it used to be
this ocean
this breeze
it will always speak
speak right to me
you just don't see
what makes my heart be
this place
this part of me
and what is lost
And it is if I sit on a beach trying to
Whisper me all the answers
And I refuse to listen
I will never accept

This wind is calm
Leaning on it as it holds me in
And this freedom
Looms
This feeling never lasts
This rain is always welcomed
And I take it in, every drop
Begging it for it not to stop
I stare at this ocean,
Blue shaky waters
Only meet
Dark stormy clouds
And I am at the point where they join
Where your voice remains
I sink in the blue
Fade as if I already knew
This ocean
This breeze
It will speak
These words I need
To dive in deep
To have the courage to seek
Myself
Alone without this feeling
And search for the healing
Of where to start
This ocean
This ocean speaks
I miss you in the ways of the wave
That come at me reminding me to be brave
Im left in the sky
And I search for your light
The beauty of this ocean
And at this time of night
I fall
As Does the rain
I hold this fire
This fire lights for you
These moments are made for me
To see, to heal,
To feel
This ocean
This breeze
These sea shells washed with these tears
For you to hold through the years
its all I have left
are these
shells and sand
and the rain
that falls on
this ocean
this breeze