Story of My Life

A poem written to describe my life.

Things aren’t alright, I’m not actually fine.

But then again who is anymore?

I don’t understand, they say there is a greater plan, but really what is it?

I’m so confused, I feel so used.

I’ve been lost for a long, long while.

I’m suicidal, and sometimes I think my decision is final.

I question myself,

Should I still be alive?

I’m already dead inside.

Every night, I cry myself to sleep.

Every time I get happy, it turns into a sad, isolated dream.

I might act strong, but trust me I’m barely hanging on.

I have no dad.

He left me and it’s all my fault.

I wasn’t good enough for him,

If I’m not good enough for him, then, am I good enough for anyone?

My parents are divorced,

And now I’m forced, to live with it forever.

Now I’ll never be alright, now I’ll never be fine.

My mom hates me; the arguing and the screaming proves it all.

It’s always me, it’s always my fault.

She blames me, and leaves another stain.

Another stain, another mark, in this lame, and untame story of my life.

Now, I’ll never be alright, now, I’ll never be fine.

Reviews

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Hey try to be strong... No matter how hard or harsh the present seems to be there always is a silver lining to be found in everything.. You have just got to be strong and brave to reach that point... You express the emotions well and in a heart-touching way...

[Inject Positivity]

I won't say I understand the pain you are going through each day but I will say you do deserve something more from this and for that reason I would request you to hold on...

The speaks of pain and the struggle of your life and it's brave to write them down... You'll find your way again just like we all one day...

Sincerely
Dhiman