What Do I Do Now?

This is a story and poem combination

I don't feel

anything

I haven't

seen you

or talked to you

in years

Why

does it still hurt?

Everything I knew

about you

that i thought I'd

forgotten

is back

Now

I can see

every

detail

Remember

your voice

See

your face

But what do i do?

How do I make it

go 

away?

I hardly

knew you

But somehow

I still

miss

you.

I didn't know what to say, or what to do. It wasn't even registering. The world was still moving in front of me, but in my head, time had stopped. I couldn't focus on anything else. Nothing else made sense. His face had come into my mind, his voice echoed through my memories, everything that I had known about him had flooded my brain. It was just so strange. I hadn't seen or spoken to him in years, I had forgotten who he was. somehow, even without really knowing him, it was still devastating I couldn't believe that he was dead. Not only that, but he'd killed himself. He was so miserable that he'd been able to make the decision to die. He was the same age as me, I had known him, talked to him, gone through school with him. He was a very real part of my life, one that I hadn't' even known about, and yet, I still felt empty knowing he was gone. He had been friendly and funny, he never failed to make people laugh. He didn't really take things seriously. He was someone I remember appreciating and enjoying. But now, nothing is going to be happy for a long time. I can't even understand. I don't know what to say. What do I do now?

Author's Note

This story poem combination is about a guy I went to elementary school with for about four years. He committed suicide a little while ago and I just found out last night. I wrote these for him. I don't really know why, but I did. He deserved something.