What was my day like?

context I found out about my tumors

If you were to ask what my day was like I would tell you that it was relaxed and good; in reality it was far from relaxed and good. My day was filled with constant pressuring thoughts of what can I do next, how could I do more for myself. I spent the day working out and studying, two things I enjoy so much but even those started to feel like too much today. Sometimes I wonder if it’ll be okay to take a break or if a break would put me behind. My thoughts today felt like crashing waves craving to find its way to the shore. I then took the time to enjoy nature and the beautiful things around. A butterfly oh so big and bright landed upon my shoulder and stayed with me for a while as I admired it and it admired me; I felt as if we were two friends enjoying the view. The departure came fast when I saw no longer could stand on my own, I felt sick today.