10:55

Your threats
And your words
Are so over used
That I no longer fear
Their meaning

It's always the same
Not I that you blame
But you still try to shame
The monster
That dwells
In my soul

So I try hard to hide
Deep down inside
So you don't have to feel
This pain
That I know you are caused
Each time that I fail
Again

And I'm so tired
Of the promises
That I try hard to keep
But these wounds are so deep
That the promises leak
And I can't seem to eat
For the guilt is devouring
My mind

And my thoughts are absorbed
In these goals
And these numbers
And the endless race
To Perfection
The most beautiful word
In an ugly world
That my life
Seems to revolve
Around

And I know that you see
What you claim to be
This flawless me
But I can't agree
When a reflection screams
Your lies

And I know that you know
Each of my tricks
But I can't seem to kick
These habits that keep
Me safe
In my own little world
Of rules that I trust

And when I whisper my pleas
Of what I wish I could be
Don't get angry with me
When so many teens
Do the same

The lady on T.V.
Is so pretty you see
And though it's selfish of me
I wish I could be
Desired like she...

So go ahead,
Punch me
As you claim
You're so tempted
To do!

I won't feel it you know
For all the pain seems to go
Throughout my body
All of the time
And there's no way to sort it
All out

And you don't understand why
I'm mad that you cry
When I feed myself lies
Though you constantly try
To tell me I'll die
Yet I still think that I'm
Invincible.