Something Wrong with Me

I am dead 

I no longer feel

It has been forever 

And I fear to live again

Some may think it strange

But I often figure being dead is best

If I can no longer feel

You can no longer hurt me

Everyone around me alive

With hopes and dreams 

Living their life to the fullest

Wedding here

Baby there

No it's not for me

I try to stay clear

But you don't see 

I've died inside

He talks of marriage

Starts to descibe a baby

I turn away cooly

I go to my room 

Curl into a ball

I begin to cry

The tears flow down my face

I can't picture living

I  no longer dream

I'm too afraid 

To come back to life

I paint my smile on

I go through the motions

A fake laugh here and there

Theres too much pain

I mask it as often as I can

I don't want you to know

I don't want you to see

That there is something wrong with me

Reviews

[ron]

There is nothing wrong with you. I know how you feel. it hurts to dream sometimes. Just putting on a smile somedays takes all the energy I have. I may write about what I want and need or what I can give some one else. but in truth Thye are just words of how I dream my life could be.