Rain, Rain Go Away

I fell in love with my best friend. She was traumatized in many ways when I met and got to know her. This poem describes How much I broke myself while trying to save her.

Teardrop falls like rain

From a bloodshot yet blue sky 

In a feeble attempt

To wash the pain

To purify

My aching soul.

Nature baths in the punt nectar

Soaks it in.

Sends the fresh smell of first rain

Through the air

Merging with warm soft sunlight

In this isolated afternoon

All it does is reminds me

The sweet smell of your black glossy hair.

Like a protective cloak

Nourishing my weak presence

Or like a consuming darkness

Wiping out my existence.

Like I'm clueless

Will you ever take that step

Hold open that door

For My heart aimless

Sweetheart, I'm not sure. 

Effect of your love has so many

variations

Your silence or your smile

Controls my future

Sets its motion

Your response and attention

Is it love or is it manipulation?

Seems like chasing your mirage

Has become my passion

In a pity full way.

This cycle of loneliness

Bits of innocent love

And pieces of happiness

As its layer. 

Will it ever break?

How much I will be able to take

Pushing myself to the limit

Will my mind wreck?

Just like I don't know 

If you ever will walk through that door

Take that step

LOVE

I'm not sure.