Naturity

I am not the boy I was
I can care without a drop of love
I am not the man I wish to be
For I can break people without a second thought

What happened to me?
I know I'm better than this
At least, I thought I was
Now I can only sit and wonder

To be given everything and yet return nothing
Even though she knew I had nothing to give her
She gave it, yet I couldn't, wouldn't give back.
I felt nothing there to give.

It was good that I was denied even more so
I am still a work in progress
Did I really need to break someone though
Just to see how broken a person I really am?

I am not fit or ready for this
I have longer to go than I thought
I am what I am, with a wish for more
More than what I have become