Muses of Finatical Fantasies {{26.2.2009}}

It's crazy how I'll get closer to enemies
To get closer to the ones I love
It's loneliness that keeps me here, and stress
That keeps me away from you

So inspired I feel a muse was hired
Just for me this week while I was so weak
Yet everything I write and think of each night
Is about you, only you

Unthought of double meaning, unsought feelings of leaning
More to him and them than others
And yet away from him, along with them
I feel I'm pulling away I'm not sure when this started ,today?

But I'm giving into myself knowing it will cause me hell
I fear, if I don't leave soon and I get near, my feelings will show all too true
Love for you is too strong. If I give up for too long
I'll forget self-control, I'll dig myself deeper into this hole

Self-restraint, I'll have none, giving in, only for the one
I'll love forever, hoping we'll be together
closer to me... only in my fantasy.