This S**t Gets Old

The questions that you ask

An impossible task

And the answers that you deserve

The truth that you seek

I just cannot speak

For I can't put it into words

A blur was that night

Cause all we did was fight

Equal sides of right

And wrong

Our feelings had erupt

I stopped it abrupt

We both knew all along

That the times have changed

We wisened and aged

Our love became twisted

And both of us were played

We had our chance but missed it

But whose fault is it?

Each masters at this game

We're no longer the same

So why do we always wince

When we hear the other's name?

First love never dies

A prequal to hate

A third chance is too late

One another we despise

I don't know how I will face you

Quite honestly, I'm scared to

I wonder what you will say

And if it really is 

Easier this way

To pretend to hate

I called it a mistake

You claim it was fake

I was in love with the old you

Now you've become the untrue

I don't like the path we lead

We became strangers instead

And now, each day

I can answer

And say

With you I was dead

Anyway

"We" were just a book reread

The guilt is what I still dread

Do you think of us that way

Too ?

I know I do.

I just wish I could face you

And say what I mean

Without you pushing back

And disagreeing

I see your side

I know you have issues

And I treat you like dirt

But listen to mine

Remember how bad I missed you

And how much I hurt

Beware your karma, you say

Well, a point, if I may

This is yours

Come back times three

But no matter what you get

It's still better yet

Than what you did to me

It took you this long to finally see

That you were actually in love with me 

Were you scared or something?

It wasn't too soon.

 So what did you have to lose?

Your dignity ? 

No, nothing.

We never would've made it

I'm glad the feeling faded

I could keep on going and going

And give a million reasons why

But here's to all my years of knowing

Our first hello

Should've been follwed

By a long time waited for

Crucially needed

Goodbye

6-17-09

The day I started to die slowly without knowing it.

Reviews

[Thea]

"First love never dies"...That's so true but remember, "Love is sweeter the second time around"...Hahaha! I love the whole poem...Well done... :)))

[Raven Starhawk]

For real this can be very well about my ex and me. I hope that makes sense but as I read your words they took me back to a time where they made so much sense and how it seemed like each day was a day spent in hell. I am not sure where this came from but it is a good write.