Aware

A wee bit negative.

Bitter
Disgusting
Angry
Revolting

Quiet
Repulsive
Lethargic
Disheartened

Choking on his very own thoughts
He certainly had something to say
But somewhere along his desert tongue
His words were violently suffocated

Deep in thought constantly
Never truly happy
Over-complicating
Every little damn thing

His friends dig their f*****g heels
Into his acquiescent chest
His heart popping like a slug
Underneath a steel-toed boot

Looking into the mirror
He asks many questions
He wonders if he's schizophrenic
Can I be if he's aware of it?

His ideas get lost in his head
Like a burning spider web
Complex and beautiful
At least to him, but they dissipate
So quickly like summer rain

Hoping he can overcome
His timid self while he is young
But as the dreadful years move on
He hides behind his ghostly flesh
His racing mind never rests
He wishes I would just shut up
I wish he would just f*****g grow up

Reviews

[Dana Shefelbine]

love this.

[Jaeda]

"His heart popping like a slug
Underneath a steel-toed boot"

The best representation of hating yourself, but you twisted it around at the end, my favorit part;

"He wishes I would just shut up
I wish he would just f*****g grow up".

Thanks for the submission to my contest.

[Meredith Leigh]

Wow, very sad, so descriptive. It flowed like a poem but told like a story.
Lovely write!

- Kriss

[Samantha Ashley*]

lol I like your ending it made me laugh I little, but its good! I like it