Speak My Mind

For once in my life I'm going to speak up and say what I've held in for so long...
We used to be so close...
Now we are pulling apart...
Was it all just a trick?
Did you just play your part until I was old enough to take care of myself?
We fought and we argued but I never thought this would happen...
I feel like you don't care...
Do you?
It feels as if you aren't even trying anymore...
Have you given up?
It drives me crazy that it can't be like it used to be...
Remember when we used to go get Ice Cream just for the fun of it?
And when we'd go and just have a day together because you had time...
Or maybe we'd stay in and watch movies or play some video games...
Now we don't do anything...
It hurts me that we don't spend time together anymore...
If you only knew how many tears I've cried because of you...
I feel useless and I don't know what to do anymore...
I used to want to be like you when I grew up...
You were always nice and were always there when people needed you...
You never stopped working and did what ever it took to have food on the table...
You always made sure I had what I needed...
But now I've changed my mind...
I just want the old you back...
When you used to care...
When we were a family...
What are we now?
Your giving me the impression you don't care...
I started thinking that something was wrong when I was younger...
You weren't always around and it upset me...
You treated me like I was the world when you first got custody of me...
But then what happened?
I started to think that it was my fault...
I thought I did something wrong...
As I got older I realized that's just how you are...
Everyday I wonder whats going to happen...
You hide behind a mask and pull everyone in...
Once everyone's comfortable you take that mask off...
Then your true colors show...
I like you better with that mask on...
Did you ever once stop and think how your actions make others feel?
It hurts a lot...
I don't want to hurt anymore...
I don't want to cry anymore...
Please just stop...

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Sometime we must remind people we need them in a life. People can get lost and need to be brought back on the right path. I must stop and insure I spend time with my youngest daughter. She is the last of four children. A very sad poem. Life can be hard. Children are the teacher sometime is the wisdom of love and care. A powerful poem with a story that can teach a lesson.
Coyote