Afraid

Afraid to live

Afraid to die

Afraid of what i feel inside

Fear is eating me

My devils are beating me

No matter what i choose

I will always lose

I am fighting

But my devils are biting

Please just let me hit the snooze

Just don't make me move

I don't want to lose

My life's a bore

Except i'm fighting a war

A war where nothing is right

All there is to do is fight

My devils as they bite

Maybe I'll ignite

The power inside of me

To win this war

To bad, it has just begun

Living in a body that strives to survive

With a mind that wants to die

Oh Look!

There's a ledge maybe i can fly

Either I fly or I die

Either way i loose

I can fly away from everyone and everything

Except then i’m left alone with my mind

The worst devil of them all

I can't escape it

I guess it's time to fake it till i make it

Maybe if i fake a smile long enough

it will be real

And i will have forgotten everything i feel

Life is an endless cycle

That always ends with death

My smile is so convincing

No one can see the pain i feel inside

Except it's getting harder to hide

My devils are all around me

My pain is no longer inside of me

It's on my skin

These devils bites hurt like the hell that i’m living in

I’m in an endless hole and i’m falling hard

It seems like there’s no way out

Reviews

[Jessica Lynn Polley]

I love this poem. I wage wars inside my head every day of my life...and you express that desperation that can bring really well it this poem. That same feeling is what pushes me to right most of the things I do...my stuff can be pretty dark to. I like that you own it, and that you are making something beautiful out of it. Great poem.

[Madi Rose]

awww thanks so much, I write to get my feelings out as well as to show people that they aren't the only ones who feel this way.

[Vaporvision]

I see the message you are trying to get across here, but I couldn't attach to this poem. Some of the rhymes are clearly done on a whim, and some don't make much sense. Not faulting you for it either; rhyming poems are hard. Times can be tough, but remember that they always get better eventually. Also, remember that "I" is a proper noun, and should be capitalised when one is speaking of oneself. You have potential as a writer, but I can't say you grabbed me with this one.