Then why….

I’m supposed to drink water then why is there coffee
Im supposed to exercise then why are there plastic surgeons
I’m supposed to sleep then why is my phone keeping me awake
I’m supposed to eat fruits and vegetables then can’t I buy them
I’m supposed to go to the doctor every 6 months then why is it expensive
I’m supposed to learn at school then why are teachers and classmates forbidding it
I’m supposed to cry and feel emotions then why am I laughed at
I’m supposed to have interests then why am I only allowed 2 hours
I’m supposed to be a Christian who loves God then why can’t I get up to go to church
I’m supposed to be a child and children don’t know what stress is then why am I crying
Then why am I always angry
Why does childhood hold the weight of the world
This is supposed to the best time of my life, no bills, no responsibilities, no job
Then why aren’t I happy