Pondering Piercing Thoughts

Sometimes the thought is more successful than the attempt

Used to sit beside you every day

& I never say a thing 

Always had your number in my phone

I could never let it ring 

See I can’t really bring

More than you already got 

Been on my last two cents

Then its meaningless thoughts 

If only paper could talk

I would’ve never walked away 

I didn’t know what to say

I’ve been caught up, it’s complicated

Avoiding the complications 

Adjusting the black & whites

Sometimes there’s a combination

Anticipate conversation

Is why I’m not conversating 

I’ve been constantly degrading myself

Now that you’re gone

Know that there’s nobody else 

Reach outside these bars

Like I’ve been locked in a cell 

I might say it’s all good

It’s in the direction of hell

Note to self. Discern your worth

& never sell yourself short 

Conform in accordance of endorsement

& not what’s important 

Smoking out of proportion

Dreams are subject to abortion

I’ve been forcing the issue 

You’ve been misusing my heart

Steady abusing my soul for the avoidance goals

It’s beginning to take it’s toll 

You told me how to get through

Been down and out like an L

& I’m unaware of what to do 

Smooth strokes of pixel pens  

Always paint the perfect picture

Pertinent to the pain anticipate dissipation

Consistent with sad sensations

It’s tough to relate the topic

Especially without the talking

Feels trippy taking a walk 

Author's Note

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