My Mona Lisa

I may never measure up.
I may not know his name.
But I know he took my place.
I know excruciating pain.

I'm not the man you needed.
Foolishly I forced you away.
Your memory still haunts me;
Comforting words you used to say.

The tears just trickle down,
Forcing my heart to rust.
My will is more than shattered.
My soul is weathered to dust.

I continue to float in purgatory.
Too much time to reminisce.
I can't imagine hell could be,
Any amount worse than this.

The days all melt together.
I misplaced my will to eat.
I swallowed my foolish pride.
And will wallow in my defeat.

I would burn myself alive.
Willingly jump into an abyss.
Just to hold you once more,
To have just one last kiss.

But to tell you would be fatal.
To have you would be a blunder.
I remain cast out of your world,
Dreaming only to be six feet under.