when iA Poem by aila.23journey through love and heartbreak as she finds her way to acceptancewhen i first met you you said i was the apple of your eye with flowers in my hair and light in my eyes i parted way through the thunderstorms to prevail in your skies when i first wanted you, we spent nights under the stars mornings talking with our fingers intertwined connected from head to toe when i first needed you you were always there the shoulder i cried on the hand to rub my hair and tell me everything's okay when i first loved you you told me the prettiest fables about our happily ever after about the day we’d wed you would place a band of gold on my finger and stake your claim on my golden heart when i first trusted you you broke it without warning she didn't have flowers in her hair but she did have light in her eyes and potential in her cheeks sparks in her breasts and roses in her teeth but there were rose thorns on my fingertips poison on my lips and between my thighs but i suppose the pain felt nice because when i first forgave you you said you were sorry, that you felt like the world was coming down on you i said i was sorry for making it when you first broke my heart well, i didn't know what to do your copper smell and rustic voice was already imprinted onto my nerve cells tainting my bloodstream i didn't need the band, i was already yours but the gold on my heart began to chip away, revealing a rusted interior that not even i knew existed when my heart first reconstructed itself you watched and laughed when i first realized you were no good for me my heart broke in its cage and as it lay dying i watched as you tore it to pieces yet again to be truthful, when i first left, i didn't leave with my words nor my actions instead, i left with my unspoken resentment my rose thorns and my tainted petals they say that love is like a flower for it must be nurtured it is no wonder my petals fell off went dry, and crumpled beneath my feet and maybe if you'd known that beneath your feet were the remains of love unseen love taken for granted love unbroken then maybe you would have tried to pick up the pieces before it was too late but it is too late and so finally when i first left you i felt my heart shakily lift her wings break off her rusty chains burst through her gates and fly free i once understood why the caged bird sings but now i understand why she never tried to leave because sometimes imprisonment feels not like what it is and sometimes settling feels like all you need but when i first understood my worth, and what i deserve i knew it would come to me. and i may not still have flowers in my hair, and only potential in my cheeks to speak for me. but that's all i need. © 2018 aila.23Author's Note
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Added on February 16, 2018 Last Updated on February 16, 2018 Tags: love, heartbreak, cheater, beauty, acceptance |