ReflectionA Story by 3amthoughtsJust some thoughts of mine.Things I learned in one year. Love. If the person you love stops you doing what you want, its
not love. If they make you feel pressured to be someone else, to dress
differently, to act differently, to have different friends, to like different
music, its not love. If you feel threatened by them in anyway what so ever, its
not love. If they make you feel small, worthless? Yup you guessed it. Its not
love. I have said it for years, choose the people who aren’t making
you choose, but when the person you think you are in love with gives you an
ultimatum, its completely different. Being in that bubble when you feel like
your whole life is revolved around them, its almost impossible to take a step
back and look at the bigger picture. You may know that the way they are making
you feel is wrong, but you are completely drowning and they seem to be the only
one holding out a hand. That is not the case. They are the one pulling you
down. Anyone who gives you an ultimatum between them and something
you dream of doing, does not love you. You always “know when you’ve met the one” right? Bullshit. That
boy you sneak out to see at midnight might make your heart jump, and his smile
may engulf every inch of your heart and you cannot see a future without him,
but you have to remember. You never really know anyone, and when your so called
love for this boy is in-twined with the excitement of having a secret, is it
him you are in love with or is it the excitement? When the excitement dies away and suddenly you are in this
relationship with someone you barely recognise, you don’t know them because you’ve
only ever seen the side they want you to see and they still are constantly on
your mind but for all the wrong reasons. Will they be happy with the meal you
have cooked? Or because you’ve decided not to see your friends for the third
week running? They are miserable so you must do whatever it takes to make them
happy even if it drives you to the thought of slitting your own wrist open in
your parents bathtub. Don’t let them drag you down, don’t let them control you
to this degree. If you are ever with someone who controls you, even in the
slightest way. RUN. RUN FOR THE HILLS. Do you want to be that woman who has
five kids and a husband who has seven mistresses and you aren’t even allowed
out? No? Then run. I thought I was in love and I hated life for making me feel
this way. I was tricked by my own heart, I wasn’t in love, I was infatuated
with a boy I met in the half lit shade of the sunrise. Love should never drive you to suicidal thoughts at 3am as
he is lying next to you, listening to you cry but not giving a damn. If you ever feel a moment when you feel you cant tell
someone what he said to you for fear of their reaction, that is the exact
moment you do tell someone, you mum, your sister, some randomer on the street.
Tell someone. You are not alone, they want you to feel that way but you are
strong and you will be so much better without them. They bully you down because
they know you are stronger than them, and are scared you will leave if you have
the choice. They do not love you; but don’t be sad because you don’t love
them either and your future is brighter without them. Im not sure what love is; but I’ve learnt the hard way what
its not. © 2015 3amthoughtsAuthor's Note
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