why did i ever?

Getting yourself into something you never should have.

Why did i ever let it get that far?

Why did i ever let myself be drawn into it?

Why could i never see what was right before my eyes?

How could others see what was happening and i never listen to a word they said?

Because i loved him.

 

I should have learned to let go.

I should have learned to leave the past alone.

I should have said goodbye on my own terms,

and not hung on till the very last moment.  Hoping for a change of heart.

I should have learnt from my own mistakes, but i didn't.  Why?

Because i loved him.

 

I dream of the times we had together.

I dream of the good times.

I dream of the bad.

I dreamt  of the life i wanted to share with him,

While i was still so young and in love.

Then i realised it wasn't love,

And i realised there was no trust.

There was only one thing left which kept it all alive.

Obsession.

Author's Note

This is my first poem on here. let me know what you think?

Reviews

[Ivory]

I can really relate to this poem. Very honest and open piece.
Good write : )

[Christina2]

Absolutely understand.
Felt it all.
Mistaken for love- desperation and obsession. Wow.

(may want to ck. spelling on dreamt)