free.

freedom is beautiful

They thought i was broken

they saw me and saw a ghost

they thought it was over

they gave up and called it quits

i tried to to not be hurt 

but i know by now that never works

They didn't see someone who got up

after being thrown around by the wind

they didn't see someone who finally thought they were enough

who finally didn't give in

to every bad thing that came their way

to every bad idea that they had to face

two months ago i dreamt of home

but i didn't know how to go there anymore

i didn't know how to call it what it wasn't

when i started to feel like a scared animal being hunted

always looking over my shoulder

afraid they saw every mistake i made

i didn't want it to define me

but it does, every loss, every broken piece inside me

i just wanted to forget they were there

i told myself they did'n't care 

i didn't want the scars to be around

i wanted to start over when i got to this town

hurricanes write my name

in the sky above, in the clouds i hold in my hands

but i don't mind them, they give me strength

i took a break, i took some time, i went away

they took it the wrong way

but i knew they would, so i closed my eyes, let it go, 

instead of being sad i prayed

i know the ones that love me only want the best 

but I've depended so much on their words

when i stopped being golden, when i stopped doing things right

i felt as though i'd never hear them again

i didn't know how to be who they knew

i didn't know how how to not need what i needed so badly

so i stopped trying to convince and persuade and just let myself be

i'm a mess, a beautiful mess

and my heart and soul are being organized 

i don't want to have to pretend

i don't ever want to hide

i remove myself from things that cause dark clouds to form

i don't want to see them, i don't want them around me

i only want light, my only goal is to heal

i am free.

Reviews

[Michael (Letters and Li..]

I just came across this and I have to say, this is a very powerful poem. You have a lot of great lines in here that feel so powerful and leap off the page. I especially loved the first stanza and I love the line "hurricanes write my name". I don't know what it is exactly, but there's so much power in that line. It's so poetic. Thank you for sharing this.