Choice

To let go or to hold on

Sitting in my car 

With the ringing of silence in my ears

It's the one you always leave for me to hear

I feel my heart sink

Like an anchor in the most shallow water 

Heartbreak wasn't meant for me 

I don't think 

We were never meant to meet 

But here we are, you and me

You left a shadow 

For me to follow 

Until you look back to see nothing 

It's empty, you drained it 

All the love that was left for you 

You bury it in the leaves 

Falling off every tree 

I planted for you to breathe 

Never wanted to be your saint 

I just wanted my paint 

To create a sunset in your mind 

So you could be at ease 

When you lay down to sleep 

But now it's darkness 

And my colors have been painted over 

You don't see the beauty in it anymore 

My heart sank 

Like feet into wet sand 

The water fills my lungs and I smile 

Because finally this pain helps me understand 

What went wrong, what I need 

You should know I can't handle the same thing 

You should know I was never cold enough

To be who you thought was me 

I sit in the dark 

And dream of the ways I wish you cared 

I dream of your face when you see me 

On good days 

When I forget feeling this way 

Never thought I'd have to choose 

Never thought sorry would sound like it's too late 

On bright days 

Your heart is the warmest thing I've ever felt 

On good days 

You make me feel like someone else 

Someone stronger, wiser, older 

Never thought I'd ever let that go 

When I worked so hard onto it this time around 

Never thought someone I'd choose in the end 

Wouldn't choose me 

Never thought I'd have to second guess 

What I thought I felt so clearly 

Always thought I'd choose the one I love the most 

But your love is a ghost, moving through me

Teaching me to not hold on too tightly

I always chose you 

Over anyone I ever knew 

Cause I knew you were meant to be apart of me 

Out of the darkness your heart found my pieces 

And you put me back together 

Again and again 

Till the very end 

Now I fear I was never enough 

I fear he won't be either 

And I don't think she was 

I would've given anything 

To be your everything 

But this becomes nothing to you 

Once again so easily 

I can't live in fear 

I can't fear when the next one will come 

I can't imagining having to choose because 

It was always worth it 

But i guess now I choose 

So here it goes 

I've made my choice. 

Reviews

[KCthelastboyscout]

Always painful to read words of a broken heart.when it's ready to heal listen to what it wants to do next.maybe it's what you wanted all along