Fear

Fear is powerful

it runs through me

through my bloodstream 

In the air i breathe, sometimes it chokes me

I used to sit up in bed, eyes wide open

wide awake, I would feel my heart beating 

I couldn't feel anything

but fear 

I used to fear what came next

I used to be scared of what was in my head

I ran down the streets of foreign cities

until I came crashing down hopelessly 

I was flying, in my head and physically 

Every plane became second nature to me

From one extreme to the next

nothing has really stayed the same 

Except for one thing I can see, taste, and hear 

fear

I used to be afraid to lose people

along the way that changed

I stopped seeing the permanence of things

I started to feel how easy temporary could be

I was just always moving

from city to city, house to house, 

I never slowed down 

There was no time to think or hold on

But I would try as hard as I could

Until I was barely holding on to me

I would slip and fall 

And lose everything

And all that was left

was fear

I used to fear being me

I didn't know who I was 

I didn't know what they could see

I used to be afraid to speak up

I would sit in the corner and think

I would fight for the wrong things

I could never see the bigger picture

I could only see the smallest piece

the thing that kept me from living

the thing I was hiding from

fear

I am still afraid

I fear the future, I fear not succeeding

I fear being stuck while everyone else is moving 

i fear not doing what I love

I fear people not seeing me for me

I fear a new city, a new home

I fear never feeling safe again

I fear never being still or stable

I fear never sharing my heart 

I fear never taking chances

I guess it's time to take one now

and become who I was meant to be

She's made up of a lot of things

Happiness, laughter, compassion, empathy, and her biggest motivator:

fear.

Reviews

[free spirit]

Such deep.words... and so relevant. . At some point or the other in our lives, we all.feel fear... its how we overcome it that matters : )