first five

first five 

first five days in the nam

day one

i am scared shitless

just what have i done

just what have i done

over and over

just what have i done

i had no idea how real it is to be soldier

a target a menace a victim maybe survivor

a statistic 

only a number amongst many

of the same

day two

first venture into the strange new world reality i now stood

a hard slap of impending death

each hair standing on end

silently hoping i would just make it 

showing not the uncertainty i held hard within

day three

my first fire fight first glimpse of death

i saw 

no witnessed another just die 

never to be a son brother lover father

only memory stained with sorrow for those left behind

day four

down time behind the wire

eat s**t change socks make ready 

for that to come again at moment's notice

lock and load mutherfuckers 

time to search time to kill

day five

f**k me f**k me f**k me

lock and load mutherfuckers

time to search time to kill

58,200 or so would fall

never to stand again

as son brother lover father

never to stand again

time to lock and load 

mutherfu ..................... 

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

A harrowing read keith. Every mother's effing nightmare, that this is what her son is going through. Survival. Kill or be killed and you survive it only to suffer the mental anguish forever. I am thankful I have no sons, but I have three grandsons and I fear for them. No one wins in war. I could say so much more, but it hurts my heart to go there.

Chris

[keith]

and it should hurt all of us.
yes, there are no winners ... now or later
thanks to our VA many vets have 'help' of many fashions available ... problem is many are too embarrassed to admit and ask.

[Neville]

it is impossible to determine for certain whether these words reflect the personal harrowing experiences of a veteran, or conversely, the very vivid imagination of a wordsmith .. nevertheless, I was well hooked, played and landed regardless ...................................................................... Neville

[keith]

it is a 50/50 moment that is correct either way

[keith]

air becomes thickened by death
laying heavy within the 5 senses
a gravy of horrific nature
never to be forgotten
war bragging is for liars

on a lighter more personal note
i carry 'hot' every day, always have always will
it is 2nd nature
not because i feel need to threaten others
but rather keep myself on this side of dirt
once a warrior always a warrior
peace