Don't leave

I just wrote this about something that happened last night

Don’t leave

I wanted to say

I wanted to keep hearing you breathe

Wanted to keep holding your hand.

Your curly hair between my fingers

That my fingertips could finally feel.

Just being in that moment,

Where you and I were meant to be.

You couldn’t hide you were mad at me

You couldn’t even speak.

I asked what was wrong

You said “nothing”

As if I hadn’t heard that before.

 

The night was too dark

And your feelings you always want to hide.

How can you not be vulnerable?

After you’ve seen me cry.

Multiple times.

Leaves fell from the tree and I saw that as a sign

Just as you smiled back at me.

I didn’t want you to leave.

I never do.

 

You said you might feel burdened

By the weight of our worlds colliding.

And that, I’d never make it happen.

If only you accepted the fact

That you deserved more than what you already have.

You’ve built an empire for your life

But what’s that in the end?

If there’s no one there to share.

To admire your flaws and your wins.

To clap in your show when no one else did.

And when you go to bed at night

You feel the warmth that you heard so many people talk about.

Four arms holding tight,

Whenever crying is what you want.

When the exhaustion makes you doubt your way

And you tried to push me away

So many times you lost count.

But I didn’t leave as you did that day.

I want to but you’ll never tell me to stay.

Or to leave either.

Because you know deep in yourself

That you’re getting scared again.

 

When you caress my back

And the flashbacks return

You can't help but cease the burn.

Of me touching you

And you sensing the smell of my perfume

That I so carefully choose

Every time I know I’ll see you.

Reviews

[Michael Sun Bear]

Very nice Angella. It is so detailed and describes so much considering the poem arose out of an event that happened just last night. It makes me wonder if you were up all night writing. It sounds like a very difficult relationship. Is it worth holding on to? Anyhow, well done!