try harder

I’ve been sad about leaving

of the thought of you never receiving

Of future you.

The regretful one.

The one who never wanted

But forced himself to goodbye.

And yes, I’m down

I’m the freaking sad clown.

I’ve always been.

And I keep on being it.

‘Cause (for you) I would sacrifice myself

Not even caring about my own pain.

And I would handle yours, hoping not in vain

Guess I’ve never been good with just using my brain.

And I would calm you like soft rain,

But you’ve held me such disdain

From the moment we first met

Because you knew I cared

Too much for God’s sake!

But you know,

These feelings, we cannot always sustain

Feelings that you try to change

These “things”, they’ll probably go away.

I don’t want them to,

But if you try hard enough,

You may see it happen.

You may recognize that feeling again.

And you will keep convincing yourself.

“I was never gonna be loved anyway.”