She looked so beautifulA Story by Annie-RoseHow do you know when you're in love? Especially when its your first love? This is a short story of Damian and Calli and the night that changed their friendship forever. She
looked so beautiful, right there, right then. Her hair was a tangled mess that
was casually pulled back in a loose pony tail. Some hairs were free and covered
part of her face, only drawing more attention to the beauty and simplicity of
it, of her. The thing that was truly beautiful about her was that she didn’t
try to be beautiful; she just was. It kills me that she doesn’t see herself how
I see her, it physically pains me when she doesn’t believe my compliments but
still smiles and thanks me, even though I can see in her face she doesn’t
believe them. I liked her because she was different than most girls. You
usually see girls walking around with tight, low cut tops and short shorts; or
jeans that are two sizes too small. She however, wore a long sleeved shirt,
there wasn’t any cleavage nor did it reveal anything. Her jeans weren’t too
tight but hugged her hips and long legs perfectly. Normally, guys wouldn’t
notice her if she was walking next to the other girls, but then again, those
aren’t the guys you would want. The type of guy you should have is the type
that thinks you are beautiful and not just attracted to your body. She knows
this, but I can still see that little twist of hurt in her face when others
ignore her and gravitate to the “pretty” girls. Her
eyes. I can’t, there isn’t a word to describe how deep and sorrowful yet loving
and gorgeous they are. Right now she with her staring at big moon in the dark
sky with her hairy messy and her knees hugged up to her chest, her face in
total awe as she stares up longingly into the sky, she is mesmerizing. I can’t
stop looking at her, but I don’t want to. She glances over at me realizing
reality was running loose while she was in her own little world. She smiles
showing teeth and her hidden dimples and I can’t help but foolishly smile back.
“What?” she asks me while still smiling. I can’t control my face, so in a great
big dorky grin I manage to say “nothing.” She reaches over to me and I don’t
know what she is thinking or of what she wants to do. My head starts filling
really fast with all different thoughts, my heart starts beating so fast it
would bring a humming bird’s to shame. She
shoves me playfully and rolls her eyes. Not exactly what I expected, but I
wouldn’t change that moment for the world. I playfully shove her back and she
loses her balance and tips over. I’m immediately on my knees right next to her,
“are you okay? I am SO sorry, did I hurt you? I’m so so so sorry!” I didn’t
know what else to say. I don’t know what I would do if I hurt her. She just
lies there silently with her eyes closed. Her breathing is steady and calming,
her hair is covering her face. I scoot closer to her and whisper her name. she
doesn’t respond so I do it again only closer to her face now. I lightly move
her hair out of her face and tuck it behind her hair. I’ve seen guys do that in
movies before and I have always wanted to try it. I stroke her cheek and asked
with a shaky voice “Calli, please wake up, please don’t be hurt”. I am so close
to her right now. I could be her Prince Phillip and kiss her right now to break
the evil spell. But I don’t. I see her face start to smile just in the corner
of her mouth. “I’m dead” she whispered/yelled. This made me smile, which then
made her smile even more. “No princess! Don’t be dead! That’s not good! Come
back to life, walk away from the light. I repeat, walk away from the light!” a
small breathy chuckle escapes her mouth, but she is keeping her eyes shut.
“Well, I guess if you’re dead, then I can just…” I reach over and start
tickling her in her ribs. Luckily, she is ticklish everywhere so it always
works. She lets out a huge laugh while her body subconsciously contorts so she
is scrunching up trying to get away from my grip. Her hands fly over mine and
try to stop them, but I’m not going to let up. She lets out one big snort and I
can’t help but just let out a big laugh. She finds a way to escape my fingers
and desperately tries to get up to her feet. She does, but so do I. She tries
to run away but I’m too fast. I wrap my arms around her waist and start
tickling her again. She sinks all her weight down so I am almost holding her
up. While doing this she also is leaning in more towards me and soon is right
in my chest with her hand grasping my
shoulder. “No… stop… I’m gonna… I’m gonna pee my pants!! Damien!! Noooo!!” I
stop because knowing her she actually would pee her pants. My arms are wrapped
around her and she is snuggling in close to me. She stands up a little bit more
for she had been slightly crouching before. She is still so small compared to
my body, my arms. I look down at her and find her staring up at me biting her
lip. Her eyes are focused on my mouth and then wander up to my eyes. She wants
me to kiss her. Any guy could tell. I pause momentarily to remind myself to
always remember this moment. Of course, being the awkward dorky girl she is,
she fills the silence/ stare off by sticking her tongue out at me and
scrunching up her nose. I grab her tongue and she seems surprised at first, but
then knows I wouldn’t do anything that she wouldn’t like. I expected her to
sort of fight though, like try to free her tongue or bite my hand, but she
doesn’t. She just stands there with her big eyes staring me into my eyes, like
a dog waiting for a treat. “That’s mean.” I say, while still holding her
tongue. She doesn’t say anything but just keeps staring up at me. “That hurt
Cal. I am hurt.” I keep on saying. Its killing me not to just grab her and kiss
her hard, but I know I can’t. I start to walk away over towards the play structure.
She just stands there behind me studying what I am doing. I sit on the edge of
the slide with my back towards her. I hear her light footsteps behind me, then
feel her warmth. Her skinny arms wrap around my neck from behind and she puts
her cheek against mine. It would be so easy to quickly turn my head and kiss
her cheek right now. “Please forgive me?” she whispers. “I can’t Cal.” “Plleeaassee?”
she presses her cheek harder against mine. I start to tremble and pray that she
doesn’t notice. She
steps around me and now stands directly in front of me. She looks so tall as
I’m sitting, but if I were to stand I would be a mountain to her mole hill. She
looks me dead in the eyes. I can’t read her. I NEVER know what she is thinking
or what she will do next. Usually, with other girls I can tell what they want,
but not her. Then again, she isn’t anything close to other girls. She
grabs my hands and wraps them in hers. They are small but still give off a
wonderful warmth. She knees down now still staring at me. The thoughts start
flooding my mind again. She isn’t like this? She isn’t THAT type of girl. But
if she were to undo my belt would I stop her? No. yes! She interrupts my
thoughts, “don’t get your hopes up big boy, I’m not going to do what your horny
boy brain thinks I am.” And with that her face got all sweet again and I really
didn’t know how to feel or respond to this. I was relieved, but not like that!
I mean, I want that stuff to happen between us… but not here. Not in a park. It
should be romantic and more… I don’t know… but I don’t like picturing us doing
that because then I get my hopes up, and gah she’s just so much more than that
to me. “Damien, I am sorry I hurt you. I mean it. It was mean of me. I really
hope you can forgive me and we can resolve this problem. After all, we are
married, and married people have to talk about their issues.” I almost laughed
at this, remembering when we were five and we got “married”. I still have the
rock she gave me as her ring to me. I also remember she didn’t want to be
kissed so I had to kiss her hand instead. She
let’s go of my hands and stands up. I follow and do the same. Now I am the
taller one and it feels sort of nice. She cracks a little hopeful smile and I
let out a big sigh. Her smile widens and my arms fly open. She comes in for a
hug but instead I sweep an arm behind her legs and pick her up. She claws onto
my shoulders for dear life. She is completely weightless. I could hold her like
that for hours. “OH my god! Don’t drop me!!” “Don’t worry, I won’t.” “Wait no,
I feel like I am crushing you!!!” “you aren’t. You’re easy to hold.” I can’t
believe I just said that. But it’s out and I can’t take it back. She smiles
weakly and I can see something hidden in her eyes. “you sure? You can put me
down I won’t be offended.” Liar. If I put her down she will be offended. If not
offended, then really hurt. I have no intent on letting her go anywhere right
now, but for her just to stay in my arms. This is the moment when a guy usually
says something really nice about the girl’s weight. Like “you’re a twig!” or
“there is no way that YOU could ever crush me.” But I know if I said that she
wouldn’t believe it, and she would just roll her eyes and want to be put down. Still
carrying her I walk over to a cold wooden bench. I sit down while still holding
onto her so she will sit in my lap. She starts to tremble. “What’s wrong?
You’re shaking.” My voice comes out way more concerned than I had intended. She
smiles sheepishly and looks down at the ground “nothing” she coos. I lift my
right arm so it is no longer around her waist, but now moving her face towards
mine. “you’re a horrible liar.” She keeps shaking but she plays it off cooly.
“haha honestly though everything is good! I’m just sort of cold… but not at the
same time… you know?” I knew exactly what she meant. When I’m holding her and I
focus on the places where her skin isn’t touching mine, the fall air sends a
freezing message its still there which leaves goosebumps all over my body.
Then, when I focus on her and her warmth it disappears, only more goose bumps
cover my body. “do you want to go home now?” I gently say to her. Her eyes get
bigger “no! I don’t, I really don’t want to go anywhere right now. This… this
is perfect and I want it to last as long as it can.” My response to her was
grabbing her waist and pulling her tighter towards me. I was squeezing her so
tight against my body that I was worried it would hurt her. But she reassured
my it was okay but wrapping her arm around my neck and stroking the hair at the
back of my head, while also stroking my neck. I want her. I need her. But she
isn’t mine to take. She isn’t a trophy and she should never be seen that way.
Granted, I don’t think of her like that, but I’m worried she will think I do. She
moves her head up from her little warm nest she made in my arms and before I
could even process what was happening I feel her lips leaving mine. It was a
simple, sweet, soft kiss. I wanted more, but she snuggled down back into my
arms. “are
you still awake?” I ask softly. The last 15 minutes we haven’t said one word to
each other. We just held on and listened to each other’s heartbeat. It was the
type of silence that spoke so many words. It wasn’t awkward, it was perfect.
“no.” It’s muffled but I can still sort of make it out. I move my arms a little
so she will come out of her little nest and look at me. She smiles and so do I.
“Come on, its cold out here. We can go to my house and I can put on the fire
and we can get warmed up.” My parents were gone for four days. Her parents
thought she was sleeping over at a friend’s house. She slides off my lap and
stands. I stand up to and we start walking towards my house. She took no
hesitation at all. She slides her small delicate cold hand into mine and locks
it tight. Then with her other arm she reaches across her chest and grabs onto
my arm for extra security. Its nice to know that I’m not the only one hanging
on to her, wanting to touch her. Because she wants to touch me and hang onto me
as well. My
front door is locked so we slide through the backyard gate. Before I open the
door to my house she stops. I look at her to make sure she’s okay. She’s no
longer holding my hand but instead is crossing her arm against her chest,
hiding her hand in her sleeve, while she is biting the nail of her other arm. I
step closer to her. “You can have my bed, I will sleep on the floor or the
couch.” That was the original plan after all. Then out of no where she rushes
towards me like she hasn’t seen me in years. Her hands reach up and cusp my jaw
and she pulls me into her. Her lips are so soft and her hands keep moving
around. They go from cusping my jaw, to one sliding through my hair and down
the back of my neck. Then her other hand grabs my neck and with arched
shoulders she pulls me in closer. I didn’t even hesitate. I wrapped my arms
around her and pulled her close. The kiss turns into one that is way more
passionate… way more sensual. I slide
open my back door and I enter in backwards. We never once stop kissing. I
managed to somehow close the door and get to the top of my stairs leading down
the hallway to my room without ever leaving her lips. She starts tugging on my
shirt and I take it off and throw it on the ground. Goose bumps cover every
inch of my body. “are you cold?” she asks breathlessly, only taking her lips
away from mine for a second. “no. just… just happy.” I feel her hands on my
skin. They are like ice. She is so cold I wish I could warm her up. They slide
down my stomach to the top of my jeans where my briefs are sort of showing.
This was the sign. This was the sign that she was into it. That she didn’t want
to stop. She slid her hand back up my chest and through my hair. A wave of
passion crashed into me and in one easy motion I pick her up so I am holding
her. She wraps her legs around my hips and kisses me harder. We are
about 1/4th of the way down the hall to my room when I pin her
against the wall. I slide off her shirt and she makes absolutely no signs that
she doesn’t want it off. She throws it to the ground and starts kissing me
again. She’s kissing my neck while I just stare at her gorgeous figure. She
doesn’t have big b***s, but they aren’t that small either. They can easily be
noticed if she tried to make them that way. Her soft lavender bra fits so
nicely on her body. Supporting her b***s to make them more perky. Her stomach
is flat and I am surprised she has no rolls. Usually, when people sit down
their stomach has rolls. It doesn’t mean anything. EVERYONE has them, except
for her. She
pauses a bit aware that I’m admiring her body. I look up at her and then say
staring at her lips “ you are so lovely, in
every single way.” She smiles and we start going at it again. This time
she starts biting my lip and smiling while she kisses me. I don’t know why, but
for some reason the next time she put her hands through my hair I lost all
control. I pushed her harder against the wall. And kissed her like I have never
kissed anyone before. It was aggressive, but she didn’t seem to mind. While
still grabbing my hair she moves her neck to make it my next target. I go for
it. Hard. I start kissing her on her neck and jaw and collar bones. She starts
moaning a little bit letting me know she likes it, and she wants more. I bust
the door open in my room and aim straight for my bed. I lay her down on it
softly then I start kissing her again. We were in a weird position. I was
standing over her and she was lying on my bed, but her feet were hanging off
the edge. I grabbed her hips and hoisted her farther onto my bed. Once fully
on, I got on as well, covering her body with mine. Her knees were bent up and I
was right between them. Kissing her hard. I start to move my kisses from her
mouth down to her jaw, down her neck, pass the collarbones and in between her
breasts. She wants more. I kiss her stomach and inch farther towards her belly
button. She’s gasping and her stomach contorts with my touch. I get to the band
on her pants and look up at her. Her eyes are closed but she looks so happy.
She looks down at me and gives me a half smile. Still breathing hard, she looks
at me then her pants then back to me and smiles again. I unbutton her jeans and
slide them off her pale legs. Her underwear is cute and makes me sort of
chuckle. She stops and suddenly becomes super self conscious “what? What’s
wrong?” she asks panicky “haha its not Tuesday! It’s Saturday! Your underwear
should say Saturday on them! Not Tuesday!” she would wear underwear that say
one day on a completely different day. “shut up” she teases and then pulls me
up to her mouth. She changes her position so now I’m the one who is under her.
She’s sort of to the side of me though and slides her right hand down my chest
and to my pants. Her cold fingers slip under the little waistband of my briefs
and she teases me. She is just at the surface of my jeans. If she went a few
inches farther down nothing would be in her way to do whatever she wanted with
me. I cover her hand and try to encourage her by lightly leading it down
farther into my pants. She pulls her hand out and I feel like I have just made
a TERRIBLE mistake. She
reaches over my pants now and to the buckle of my belt. I feel so relieved. I
thought I was pushing her too much and she didn’t like it. But instead she was
undoing my pants. She pulls them off. My erection is very prominent but she
doesn’t seem to mind. She slides her stomach over it and crawls up to my mouth.
She Is now laying on it and me as a
whole, but it doesn’t hurt or feel uncomfortable in anyway. The way her body
moves over it when she kisses me is intolerable. She can’t tease me like this,
its not fair. She sits up and starts messing with something behind her back.
Her bra graciously slides off her body and into her hand. She is holding it
with two fingers then drops it on the floor beside me. She’s perfect. She
lays down on me again and I can feel her on my chest. I flip her over so I’m on
top once again and take full advantage of this opportunity. I kiss her breast
so softly and she breathes heavily in arousal. Then I slide my hands from her
b***s down to her sides and hold her tight. I feel something move near my
crotch and I realize she is slowly sliding off her underwear. Then her hands
slide underneath mine and grab my butt. She slowly tries to work them off me
but I stop her. “Wait, are… are you sure?” she stares up at me and nods. I take
off my briefs and throw them on the growing mound of clothes. There we were.
Both completely exposed and vulnerable. “do… do you have…” she didn’t finish
her sentence but I knew what she was asking. I leaned over her to the little
shelf thing near my bed and pulled out a silver package. I open it and roll it
on, I then lay right on top of her. “Are you sure you want to do this Cali?”
“yes! Why do you keep asking?” “because Cali, this is your first time… it needs
to be special.” “This is special.” “I don’t want to… its going to… It hurts
Cali. It’s going to hurt your really bad to the point where you might bleed. It
isn’t fun the first time. I don’t want to hurt you…” “hey, come on look at me
Dame.” Her hands cup my jaw and I look straight into her eyes. “I know its
going to hurt, I know It most likely won’t be fun the first time. But I want
to. And with you. No one else. I will be okay, I promise.” Her face is soft and
I know she is telling the truth. “Okay.. if you’re sure… if you want me stop
just tell me, okay? Or if it starts to hurt too bad.” “I will, I promise.” I
look at her for a second trying to study her. Then I reach down and grab my
penis and she opens her legs. I close my eyes. If I’m hurting her I don’t want
to see it. She’s so tight but it feels so good. She grabs the sheets and
squeezes them hard. I hear her make a little noise and I see her closing her
eyes and scrunching up her nose. She’s in pain. I can’t do this, I can’t hurt
her! It was as if she had read my mind because before I could go further or
pull out she says softly “I’m okay Damian. I promise. Please, keep going.” I
move my hands to hers and wiggle my fingers in between her small dainty ones. I
hold onto her hands hard, almost as if trying to make her mind go to that pain
rather than the other one. I’m not all the way in yet, and It will hurt her way
more if I just slowly do it. I thrust hard so I am all the way into her. She
makes a little noise due to the pain but encourages me to keep going. I move my
hips forward and back slowly at first. She’s hiding the pain well, but I know
its unbearable to her. I want it to be done with. I want her to no longer be in
pain and actually enjoy it. I close my eyes and start thrusting faster, then
faster clenching down on her hands. I open my eyes briefly to see hers shut
tightly, a tear escapes from her eye lash and falls down her cheek. What am I
doing? I can’t do this to her! She’s crying, she’s in too much pain! “Its okay.
I’m okay. Keep going. I’m fine I promise.” Her eyes are still shut when she
says this but I know she can feel my emotions. “are you sure? Are you okay? Do
you want me to stop?” “No, Damian. Please keep going. Please.” I don’t know why
but this sort of angered me a little. She was going through all this pain to
make me happy. I start thrusting and pumping even faster and harder. I slam my
eyes shut and keep going. I can hear her making small noises as I thrust. It
isn’t from pleasure but rather from pain. I go harder. It needs to be done. Just
go. Just go Damian. I tell myself over and over again. I can feel it though.
I’m going to finish soon. With one last thrust I move my hips toward her body
so hard she lets out a small whimper. I finish and am still deep inside her. I
hear her breathing heavily trying to keep the pain from escaping her mouth. I
lay still and limp for a moment trying to catch my breath. I’m crying. What
guy cries after sex? I felt as if I should be super embarrassed, but I wasn’t.
the tears kept coming out. “I’m sorry Cali, I’m so so sorry I hurt you. I’m
so-“ “shhh its okay Damian, I’m okay, see? Look, I’m perfectly fine.” Her voice
was so soft, so enviting. I glanced up at her face. It was red and her eyes
were a little glassy, but aside from that her cheeks were dry. “It did hurt.
Really bad, I won’t lie. But Damian, I am so glad its you. That this happened
with you. No matter what it would have hurt, but being with you made it so much
more worth it, it made the pain go away.” Still crying I kiss her really hard.
I finally catch my breath and say into her neck “I’m going to pull out now, its
going to hurt even more.” She nodded and I slowly made my way out of her body.
As I was doing that I felt her muscles tense up. I then quickly finish the job
and roll of the condom. She’s sitting up against the pillows smiling at me.
“Come here.” She says quietly. I do so and lean in close to her. She gets under
the covers and I follow. Our faces are inches from each other and she’s
smiling. She’s really really smiling. It’s not forced or anything. She takes
her hand and starts lightly messing with my nose. I can’t help but to smile
back. Its cute, and amazing, and perfect in every way. I grab her closer to me
then I start kissing her wildly all over her face. Like a dog, with the sniffing
included. I do it near her ears and she freaks out. That was another one of her
major tickle spots. I start kissing her all over her face. From her forehead to
nose to cheek, everywhere. She’s smiling and she is absolutely perfect right
now. “stoppp” she mumbles through giggles, as she’s putting her hand to
completely cover my face. I finally do and we just stare at each other
laughing. She turns around so her back is towards me and inches her way closer
to me, I wrap my arm around her bare shoulder and pull her in close. I was
squeezing her so tight, but she was gripping onto my arm and squeezed back too.
I kissed her cheek and then wandered into sleep. © 2013 Annie-RoseAuthor's Note
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Added on September 22, 2013 Last Updated on September 22, 2013 AuthorAnnie-RoseORAboutI am in the prime of my teen years and already I have had to faced many different struggles. I like writing about personal and relate able subjects that teens can connect to. What I write about is rea.. more..Writing
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