Why

A Poem by Anonymous

You Guys Didn't Hear Us, Now I Hope You Do

Anonymous

I wanted to tell my life story
But I guess I’ll never have the chance
Never had any idea how hard it was to make a plan
To keep myself from hurting because of that fucked up man
But he ruined every memory I’ll ever have again
I tried to be happy and smile and say that I'm okay
But the memories follow me everywhere
Stick to my brain everyday
It’s time to say goodbye to my friends and family
I hope they can forgive, for my decision to leave
They beg and plead with me but it just goes out the other ear
His grunts and moans inside my head sometimes is all I hear
The coke going up my nose is all that I can feel
The draining feeling in my throat is all I taste these days
It’s all my fault I heard them say and sometimes I wonder if it’s true
I didn’t fight but I tried to stay away from him after that first time
But he woke me up in the middle of the night and asked me one more time
I was tired and angry so I said okay
But I cried that night couldn’t take my life so I had to stay and fight
Didn’t know the impact it’d have on me
It’s too late to save my life considering it’s already gone
I don’t believe in heaven or hell but bury me at home
So my spirit can roam the earth and haunt him till he’s torn
I lost everyone I love
Sometimes I need my baby brothers to give me a hug
But I can’t talk to them anymore so I guess I’m fucked
I hope no one cries and say that it’s all their fault
Because it’s not y'all have no idea of the secrets in my vault
I hope one day I’ll come back and life will just be great
But when I close my eyes this final time it’s to me death at its gates