Painful To Hear

What matters is not the idea a man holds, but the depth at which he holds it.

I walk around, smiling so hard

Try to imagine, where i went wrong

As good as i have been, just a human being trying

I wonder what i did wrong, for them to hate me so bad

They walk as friends, talk as your neighbors

Chat as the nice dudes, talk bad behind you back

With anything you do, whether good they turn bad

As you make any new friend, they make sure to destroy

As stronger you keep getting, still they find means to crush

With any progress you make, they are there to block it

As you try to avoid them, in your nest they will hunt you

What bad have I done, that is bad than any other

As happy I try to be, moving on is what I believe

Ignoring all the stupid, and take up my own thing

Still that doesn't make sense, they are around watching as I climb

Sobbing inside as I cry, painful tears down my cheeks

As you get a person who will be there, rumors and hatred will surround

They feed the ears of the loved ones, with dirty stories that never ends

They look in and out of their lives, to see their weaknesses and their strength

As they find a chance to break it , they make destructions and feel happy

Thought of death come around, I fight so hard to overcome

I stay alone all the time, figuring means to pass some time

I go out alone avoiding drama, I am always alone winter and summer

still its not enough for them, because they need all i got 

Painful as I talk  its not a story, painful even to think i worry

painful people you better stop, destroying others and lives

Painful as I write it is so painful, painful to hear  and see you cry

Please people live me alone, the truth will always be unknown