Mom

I really hate her now

The day you left you didnt say goodbye

Making your way off to your new guy

You left me feeling angry, wishing you would die

I was the only one who didnt care about your lie

You made your choice and i made mine

Told you to leave my son alone dont dare cross that line

Instead behind my back you went not thinking i would find out

But i told you i know about you sneaking about

You never care about him anyway

Never reached out or treated him the same

SO i gave you a way out, to just stay out

Instead you threw a tantrum, more curses to shout

"F**k you Bryan you dont tell me what to do"

But your not a mom to me

just some one i wish to never be like or see

waste of space, waste of air

someone i wish was never there.

I dont understand you, are you unwell?

I was the good one i didnt curse you or yell

even after you cheated, You made that call,

then you closed off and reenforced those walls

Spreading lies so people feel sorry for you

Telling family we lied and stole from you

Do you think that they didn't ask and see?

Because what you said is unlike me

I work hard for the things i have and need

Doing what i need so i can succeed

I dont need your money or your guilt crap

Im not falling for your lame traps

I used to look up to you

wishing i could be successful like you to

but now i wonder if any of it was true

cause being a liar is just like you

Thinking back i start to wonder why

why you chose to continue living a lie

remember that time you threw the shoe horn at dad?

i remember, that s**t bruised him bad.

what were you mad at? do you even remember?

probably something made up to spark the ember

what about when you would point out all that we did wrong

not supportive all along

The girls i dated, you would cause a divide

always not good enough, pushing till it died

You remember Ashley? Round 1 was no worry

but the second time that seed you burry

telling me its not gonna work again she was a waste of my time

that she would break my heart, not worth a dime

and it didnt last for me

because in the end it was me that killed it with a lie

all because you got in my head and i dint want that to be

but in the end the one thing i learned was to lie to me

ya i blame you for where i am, all my life a lie

always wondering whats truth and if not why

Before you were still my mom

but what about now huh?

Reviews

[Sand Witch]

This hit me hard. My Mom was a selfish, oblivious horrible human that would drag me along on her "spiritual adventures" and we'd be basically homeless for months at a time with a bunch of old hippies, criminals and drug addicts. I'll never understand why she thought that was a good idea. But every word you wrote I felt. I hate her, too.

[anxiety99]

Thank you. It makes me proud when i write something mostly for me that still creates feelings in others.