You Finally Killed Me

A Poem by Alexandra

The homeless lady in the corner
Looks better than I do
Smudged makeup across my face
10 people have already called
To see if I’m still alive
No responses needed
Because I’ll make it out
Like I always do
Unscathed by your f*****g toxicity

The little girl who waited by the door
Waiting for her father to arrive home
And never did
Was okay

The pre-teenager who was raped at 14
By her own stepfather
Waited two years to finally hear about the divorce
Was okay

The adult of 21
When she was slammed across the dashboard
Of her and her lovers car
Still yearned for his touch
Tried to forgive
Tried to relieve you of that weight
Instead fell with you on top of me
was okay

The woman of 22
As she stares at her phone screen
As both past and present collide
And even though you take his hand
Instead of mine
I hope you know all bridges have burned
All love has lost
All my energy has departed
Both of you have won
The day I don’t wake up
The day I find peace within myself
I will be okay