Today...

I’m not much of a writer but today is the day.  Every time the phone chimes my heart drops and my stomach turns to knots.  I’ve thought about the countless possibilities this could bring but none of which calm my nerves. The fear and anxiety burns through me like fire on paper. Each quiet moment is filled with thoughts about the unnerving call. I wonder, will they be sympathetic, will they get right to the point, or will they try to sugar coat it like it’s no big deal? I fear not only for myself but for my friends and family too. It’s not only altering my life but theirs as well. I fear the journey rather than the finale, our ends are all the same but our journeys and souls are what make us truly unique. My soul, on the other hand, is betraying me, and everything I’ve hoped to become. It’s testing to see how I fare with a hiccup in the road of life. While this is an unnerving time, it has forced me to think about life and its various qualities. Life is not full of love and prosperity, it’s full of hiccups and challenges, and one would be lucky to have a day go by with only happiness in their heart.