RAW

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for being me.
I'm sorry for having a past.
I'm sorry you were not the first,
I wished so hard that you were...
Please know that I am sensitive.
I've been kicked and hit and bruised.
When you chose me,
You chose scraps.
I put on a good front but please know,
I've been used,
I am not new.
I have cried a thousand tears before..
Look,
I love you
And that's so hard because I'm unlovable..
I don't always want to be broken.
But I think I will always have that fear,
Fear of being alone again.
-Complete fear...
Because that was the worst feeling I've ever felt.
Please understand...
That I have once been broken so badly.
They've crushed me.....
Please don't make me cry.
Please don't be like them.
Please.
I am sorry for being me.
I am sorry for wanting you a little more than I should.
I am sorry that you met me.
I wouldn't wish anyone the misfortune..