Early mornin expression

To put the glass down and leave the fear on the shelf

No amount of dopamine can cross examine myself

For all illusion comes to its fateful end

We all want family we all want friends

an so selfish are we to close the door

When you just cant breathe

just cant take it anymore

I love my mother

I love those few and far who came to know

ones who saved my sanity ones who watched me grow

those strangers on the street who must time travel or past life soul survived

In music on stage and with every fibre of my being there is a reason i thrived

knowing my success knowing my worth

surreal to imagine it but I was ready for rebirth

All of you who believed in me

For what I owe you feels like infinity

I fell down and decided to swim against the tide

decided to risk my life and feel alive

I cried, Under cold showers under frozen bridges

in gutters in the depths of all despair

never knew someone would love me 

like nothing else matters and I was all they cared about

I only knew love like that from mama

and I swore I could survive alone

somehow I was meant to learn the hard way

what we call home

Who we are is to be defined by the roads we walk alone

That in your darkest hour look around you 

see who comes out the shadows

We are love in infinite versions of cosmic crime

guilty of all emotions arrested for getting too blind

appoint yourself trustworthy council

let the jury see why

because nobody deserves suicide

nobody needs to die

not you not them

and somehow not I