IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED?

Is this what you wanted,
To make your mother cry?
What made you so daunted
You felt you had to die?
Is this what you wanted,
To abandon your pets,
To oust a life vaunted,
Just to embrace regrets?
Is this what you wanted,
Is this what you foresaw?
Did you feel so haunted,
You threw away it all?
Is this what you wanted,
to make your father ache?
Your corpse cursed and taunted
As he felt his heart break.
Is this what you wanted
As you swallowed the pills,
To leave us all haunted,
Lamenting all your skills?
Were we so unwanted?
Was it something we said?
Is this what you wanted,
To find you cold and dead?