Death Wish

When I wrote this, this was what I was feeling.

I hold the blade in my hand,

So beautiful when covered in the bright red liquid of life.

I love when the shiny blade

Gets dirtied by the one thing holding me to the Earth.

I make a quick slice,

Not even looking twice.

I grin as the blood drips down.

After all this time,

I can't feel the pain

My heart has hardened

To shut it all off.

I want so bad to end it all,

But I can't because I have a friend in need.

He might fall if I end this, my pain.

He surely will suffer,

I will have to just endure

All the pain that occurs.

Yes, I have a death wish,

But so does he.

The man I fell in love with,

I cannot leave him alone.

The person people see

On the outside is not true,

In crowds he is serious,

But around just me,

He is silly and hyper.

I want to heal him,

I just need some time,

To learn what to say,

To help him get by.

I have gone through hell,

And I know he has as well.

If only he could see that he is my Romeo,

And I want to be his Juliet.

I will die if he does,

I cannot let him think like me.

He will be healed,

Even if I still have my death wish.

I put the blade down,

I have no use for it now.

I have found someone I love,

And I have a reason to live.

I will eventually get rid of this,

My not-so-secret death wish.

I can get past the terrible times of my past,

Knowing that my friendship with him will last.

Reviews

[Rose Diamond]

The emotion in this poem is so real and fresh, I can feel the feelings described by the narrator, and it takes a very good writer to do that. Amazing job! :)

[Bob Sherunkle]

There is someone for everyone who will make them complete. Beautiful and tragic at the same time. Great piece Aurora.

[Louise Winter]

This poem is amazing...
So emotional, so relatable and so true for a lot of people
Well done