I Know

love lost

I know that I just won't love again

or ever be loved in return, I never was

I'll just have to accept being alone

most of my life I've always been by myself because

I have just accepted that life will always be like this

I won't ever get to feel anyone's touch again

I won't ever get to listen to their voice

or look deeply into their eyes

I won't ever get to fall asleep to their snoring

I won't ever get that feeling of feeling like living

I won't ever wake up from this boring lifeless life

I won't get someone to call my husband and him call me his wife.

I know I have to accept this or else

I just don't feel like there's anything left

nothing left of me to discover

nothing out there to find

nothing out there that would find me

I'll only know how it used to be

when it was just you and me.

I know that each and every day that goes passing by

is just another lost opportunity

I know that I never mattered

no one cared

life would be so much better without me

it would be so much better if we hadn't met

since I knew you never loved me

you never even liked me.

I know I don't see anyone that does

I'm just a shell of emptiness

and within it is just an empty hole

of no feeling

just like a blank stare

a lost soul

I know that's all I am

why am I still here

I just know I don't deserve a good man

I don't deserve happiness

I know I don't deserve the right to live

I don't deserve anything.

Author's Note

I can simply never get what I want.

Reviews

[wordman]

a beautiful sad write,just be patient,he will come along