I Know

I Know

A Poem by blondecat84

love lost

I know that I just won't love again
or ever be loved in return, I never was
I'll just have to accept being alone
most of my life I've always been by myself because
I have just accepted that life will always be like this
I won't ever get to feel anyone's touch again
I won't ever get to listen to their voice
or look deeply into their eyes
I won't ever get to fall asleep to their snoring
I won't ever get that feeling of feeling like living
I won't ever wake up from this boring lifeless life
I won't get someone to call my husband and him call me his wife.

I know I have to accept this or else
I just don't feel like there's anything left
nothing left of me to discover
nothing out there to find
nothing out there that would find me
I'll only know how it used to be
when it was just you and me.

I know that each and every day that goes passing by
is just another lost opportunity
I know that I never mattered
no one cared
life would be so much better without me
it would be so much better if we hadn't met
since I knew you never loved me
you never even liked me.

I know I don't see anyone that does
I'm just a shell of emptiness
and within it is just an empty hole
of no feeling
just like a blank stare
a lost soul
I know that's all I am
why am I still here
I just know I don't deserve a good man
I don't deserve happiness
I know I don't deserve the right to live
I don't deserve anything.

© 2015 blondecat84

Author's Note

I can simply never get what I want.

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a beautiful sad write,just be patient,he will come along

Posted 4 Years Ago

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Last Updated on August 21, 2015
Tags: love, loss, ache