Grieving for the living

The agony is real
Of a wound you don’t know how to heal
Asking yourself why they couldn’t have stayed
Why you couldn’t have lived the future your mind had made
Where is he sleeping at night
How did all the love you shared dissolve after one fight
How could he walk away
Why couldn’t I be enough to make him want to stay
I can’t find peace when my heart is broken
I can’t clear my mind of all the words left unspoken
I know It’s better this way but my heart won’t listen to my head
I’m grieving for someone who isn’t even dead