Suicidal Heart

Our love was once so strong,

now it falters,

poisoned by your fears

and assumptions,

by what you think COULD

happen and what you're

scared MIGHT happen.

Something once so strong

and pure,

so bold and mighty

has been broken,

twisted,

and now is sits in it's

corner,

quiet and demure.

I give you my all and still

you think that there is more,

that I'm my body and attention

to some w***e,

my heart aches from fighting

this repetitive war.

Loving you so much,

but you do not feel it,

you cannot feel it,

it is blocked by your paranoia,

stopped by your distrust,

and so it sits,

in it's corner full of dust,

showing the worn signs of rust.

I want to pull you close and hold you tight,

but you will just think that these arms

have held another previous nights,

i cannot kiss the pain away when you

are the one making it stay,

you are the one slicing your heart to pieces

with that razor blade of hate.

So there is nothing that i can do my love,

no way for me to help,

i simply sit here with tears in my eyes

and my head in my hands,

trying to figure you out,

only you can stop this,

but you don't know how,

so we will just exist here,

trying to live in the here and now.