My First Time

things aren't always as they seem

The first time was scary.

I didn't know what was happening.

I never had this feeling before. 

This was all new to me.

I noticed her lips first. 

I noticed how the sunlight 

 caught her lipgloss

and made it sparkle.

She tilted her head and smiled

and holy s**t...that was it.

I knew I was a goner. 

I still didn't know what to do.

I only remember ever liking boys.

But this girl, she was different.

She gave off warmth and happiness

like the sun.

I could picture us together 

years down the road. 

I could imagine kissing her

and holding her hand all the time. 

In that moment, it was all I ever wanted. 

Author's Note

im bi. be nice.